Making Things Is Very Hard

Hoorgh. Alright, h-here we go.

As you may have noticed, I haven’t been here in a very, very long while. At this point almost every post I make here is heralded with that remark, and by now I’m sure what rare few even remember this place exists or stumbled into it from the countless links I’ve scattered about in eons past know that any remarks I make about how I’m doing my best to return here on a regular basis is about it’s worth in… well, something that isn’t worth much at all. Sand? Tardigrades? Bitcoin? Something. Something not good in the slightest.

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MechaPress Update, & Life Things

Hey, everyone! It’s me! No, I’ve actually been tinkering with this website for the lesser of the last few months, getting the little things in check as best as I can. You may notice on either end of your peripheral vision the amazing background I finally got around to doing. I’m even thinking of adding and changing it for the holidays and other special occasions, like dolloping snow or having characters frolicking in that darker space back there. Who knows? But I’m finally happy with what I came up with for that, and I’m surprised it works well on the eyes. (In comparison to my last website, which while even worse than before, had a very dark and illegible theme. Piano Black is no more, and that black mess I found off Google Image Search is lost forever.)

I’ve also closed down the commissions line for the time being, with life and general plans sort of muting that out for the time being. I still take donations, of course, but now I’m pretty okay with not getting any income for the time being as I pave the way for potentially new (and lucrative (in a millennial sense, so I don’t starve +afford college)) and exiting means of getting you to buy my work, and diversifying the work I do! I’m ironing out mediums for collecting my writing into a concise place, which will be under the Extras page when that happens, which is next on the list. Cobalt fics, the old USFE archives, and the rest (if there is any) will be found in a Google-Doc based collection there, since there’s really no other good medium I’ve found to store that kind of writing. I do wish it wasn’t so white and hard on the eyes there, but I really can’t settle on anything else that’s free or has a good reputation. (Fanfiction.net is apparently still a thing, and no, I’m not going that low. Even I hold my writing to some standards.)

In more Bloggy news, I want to write here more. So I added yet another tab for just nonsense I feel like posting now and again, because I should devote more resources to maintaining and filling this place, to help maybe spread my brand around places that… well, aren’t Twitter. So video game jokes and other silly things will be posted here more, or just random thoughts. We’ll see how it goes. But maybe this can help with mental stuff, and make me less chatty to everyone and clog their feeds online. Hopefully. More Index goodies are coming too, with more headers for the website to randomize instead of just that one. I know you all are getting sick of it, too. The plan is to one day have hundreds of those headers, but it’s a while away. We’ll see about that, too. (Hundreds seems a bit lofty…)

And in the realm of real life, I’m looking to move out now for some cheap studio apartment near Community College campus, just to get some space and learn better life skills for the road ahead up in Maine. (It’s turning out to be pretty damn expensive to go up to Maine, and attend that place, but… I’m hellbent, for better or for worse. I have supportive friends and systems to still learn about, so maybe I can still get there without being dirt broke on the other end. Hopefully.) A good place within my price range is tricky to find at the moment, but I’m looking. This is a big change, and I hope it’ll fix things at least enough for me to start progressing towards full re-invention and redemption. I’m worried, but also hopeful. And I’m glad I have the friends I do to support me in this mess. So maybe you’ll even get a house tour on here someday! … A tour of a studio apartment. That really would be only one and half rooms. Plus a bathroom. My dream locale is compact, y’know? And affordable.

So, yeah, looking up! And please hold me to my promises of more Content™, and feel free to utterly smite me if I fall behind again. I need another, more constructive hobby. So here’s hoping.

Thank you!

Making Things Is Hard

Hello again, everyone. It’s been a while.

As I write this, I’ve eaten yet another huge roll of Oreos, and am quietly remarking on the fact that this is my… 15th? 16th? Attempt at getting this out on paper. I’ve honestly displayed some very evident signs of stress and agony over this during the past few days, suffering from an entire depressive episode and two panic attacks. I’ve rattled what I can of my dysfunctional mind to figure out what to make, channeling what advice I haven’t already forgotten as a means of hopefully creating something nice.

Hit the jump for the full read.